Dear Diary | by Fayth Ramsey
I recently stumbled upon an old diary of mine, one of which I had when I was 16. As I was flipping through the pages, I found myself wanting to just reach into the book and hug that scared little girl. I was blown away by all she had yet to face—and all that would change. So, 16-year-old me; here’s what 26-year-old you would say if she could...
You’re going to make it through high school, I promise. I know you feel like the odd man out, and I know you’re worried about your date to prom. But you actually end up having a really good time. Your biggest bullies end up apologizing a few years after graduation, some of them even seek you out for advice.
You’ll be really glad your suicide attempt didn’t prevail; you end up using that as a testimony to help a lot of people who hurt just like you do. You even start your own business; shocking right?
You end up falling for the boy you’re friend zoning, it doesn’t work out. That one’s going to hurt a lot, but you’ll be OK. You end up growing apart from most of the people you went to school with, but they’re all still really great and you check in now and then. You and Melissa are still best friends, she’s had two kiddos now.
Give yourself some grace in your relationship with your dad, and give him even more. He’s trying. He loves you so much, and you only have a few more years with him; but don’t worry they end up being the best years of your life. Oh, and important note, when you hug and kiss him goodbye on July 4th, 2015... hold on a little longer. Don’t be in such a rush to leave, it’s the last one you’ll have with him.
Take a deep breath, you totally end up finding out what career you want to pursue! Shoot, you even end up moving to San Diego like you always said you would. You’ll travel the world! You’ll live in Brazil for a month and meet the most incredible people along the way. Savor every moment, don’t stress over tomorrow because you always figure it out.
You’ll endure hard things, but God never leaves your side. You’re going to question Him a lot, and maybe even rearrange your faith a bit, but you grow a lot from it.
16-year-old me… I’m your biggest fan.