When She Doesn’t Have to Wait

By: Kelly Joy Fjestad

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God has this funny way of putting a dream in people’s hearts and then asking them to wait. That’s not normally how I roll. If I have an idea, I want to get started on it right away. I don’t like to wait.

I was 16 when God placed the dream and calling of ministry on my heart. That was 22 years ago! TWENTY-TWO! More than half of my life was spent waiting for this dream to happen. Sure, over the last two decades I’ve seen little glimpses of this dream coming true, but nothing that satisfies the yearning deep inside.

There have been many moments of disappointment. Times when I was sure the door I was waiting for was finally opening, only to have it slammed shut right in front of me! Could this really be God’s plan? Did I hear Him wrong? Maybe He had changed His mind and decided to use someone else instead.

One of the hardest things about waiting is watching doors open for someone else. Why is someone else getting the answer to the prayer I was praying!?! Can I really be happy for my friend who is getting the opportunity I was waiting for?

Time after time, I felt like I worked harder, prayed longer, and wanted it far more, yet someone else got the opportunity first. I felt rejected, passed by, not good enough, not anointed enough, not qualified. Not, not, not.

Now, part of me wanted to be happy for the other woman who was getting this opportunity, but let’s be honest, at times I wanted her to fail. How terrible is that!?! It’s the ugly side of chasing our dreams that tend to reveal the sin hidden inside of us. Sin can cause an otherwise lovely person to become bitter, judgmental, and downright mean. Jealousy is an ugly beast.

Thankfully, over the last 22 years, I have learned a beautiful truth. I don’t have to be envious of someone else’s answered prayer. In fact, I can rejoice with my friend who has been given an amazing opportunity! I can cheer other women on in their callings, even while I continue to wait for my own doors to open.

You see, we serve a God of abundance! There is not a limited number of opportunities we all must fight over. NO! God has opportunity after opportunity after opportunity! This life is not a competition. This life is a journey where sometimes we encourage others and sometimes others encourage us. Sometimes a door opens for you and someday a door will open for me. I do not need to be jealous of your door. I do not need to let your success disappoint me. I can be happy for you! I can encourage you! Sometimes, I can even be the one to open the door for you!

But, wait! What if I have been working really hard to prepare myself for this opportunity? What if I have been waiting and praying for months or years and she has only just begun? What if it doesn’t feel fair?

I can still rejoice! I can have peace knowing God has a great plan for my life! Maybe I am having to wait longer than her. Maybe my story seems to have a lot more bumps in the road compared to hers. But the truth is, God is preparing me for the exact moment He has created me for. It won’t look like hers because I simply don’t look like her.

The end goal isn’t really to do something great for God anyway. The end goal is to intimately know this Creator of the universe who has called me into a personal relationship with Him. Isn’t that in itself amazing? That God would want to KNOW me!?! And that He created an opportunity for me to KNOW Him! Amazing!

Maybe you are like me and God put a dream in your heart you have been chasing for a long time. Don’t give up! If God planted the dream, He will see it through to fruition. Work hard to develop the character your dream will require when it finally happens. Trust God is a God of abundance! There is more than enough for each of us! Learn to rejoice when others receive their blessings and opportunities of God in their lives. Because you never know — you might be next!

 

Kelly is a wife and mother of five children living in Fort Worth, Texas. She is an ordained minister and author of PAUSED: Protecting Your Faith When God Says "Wait" and Pursuit: The Cross. For more info visit: kellyjoy.org